The unseen world - Be prepared

This whole week has been hard, for me and my gal... I just could not contain my anger and I slapped her damn hard in the public on Tuesday. Oh! what happened to me?? I lost my control at that point of time when I was provoked by her rebellious behaviour. And she was also pissed of with my continuously scoldings..

Deep in the night, I searched myself. Suddenly I realised I have entered into the unseen world. A world that the master of all evils dwells. When I came back to the real state, I was totally exhausted. The mother and child relationship ruined. I doubt God's existence. I questioned many things and I doubt my faith... Indeed, I have allowed the devil ruled me at the point of time. I was utterly defeated.. lying flat of my cold hard bed.

I have written so much about the power of grace, love, restoraton and reconciliation yet I did not exercise them at that critical time...I slapped my own face! Why? And you know what, I was not prepared at all for these things.. I forgotten the Armor of God totally. I feel so remorseful and I cried whole night.. Even now, as I write, my tears roll in my eyes.....

This morning, a sister called. She said she has prayed for me. She told me to be strong for our battle was in the unseen world with the evil forces that come to steal and destory. She showed me Ephesians 6:10-18 - The Armor of God.

Oh dear God,
Please, please forgive what I have done. Lord, I tarnished Your name, I am sorry.. I have hurt my dear child badly. Lord, I seek for Your forgiveness... Lord, I have written a sorry note to my gal, I prayed that she will forgive me too.. Lord, indeed the devil is here to destory everything that are good in Your eyes.. Lord, teach me to exercise Your power effectively, for the battle and struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the powers of darkness and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms... Lord, help me to stay alert and be prepared to put on the armor of God all the time.. Lord, I prayed for Your love and grace to reconcile our mother and child relationship. That Lord, You guide and guard my child's heart, mind and soul... Teach her how to discern all things that coming to her... Lord, I prayed for myself that in that name of Lord Jesus, and by the power of the Holy Spirit to remove my impulsive behaviour but to think of more of God when unfavourable things happened... Lord, teach me to cling on You even more when crisis like this happen... Lord, I thank you that You have sent sisters and brothers to me and my child at this time.. Lord, I am sure both of us learnt something through this, and I prayed, even it was an unpleasant situation, Lord, You will turn it into good for Your purpose to fulfil.. Lord, I trust you and I want to cling on to You..... In the precious name of Lord, Jesus, I pray, Amen.