Disappointment, blessings and homesick

In the midst of fearing of a Writ of seizure to my place, again I thank God for answering to my plea.

Disappointment and blessings, I just feel that they go hand in hand. While here, there will so much disappointment in life, yet I can still see little blessings come along the way..

I felt the love and concern from my friends - in church and outside of church. I was really touched. They are just like manna feeding me in the wilderness.. I thank God for them.

And this book written by Philip Yancey - Disappointment with God. He wrote that
"For people who are trapped in pain, or in a broken home, or in economic misery, or in fear - for all those people, for all of us, heaven promises a time, far longer and more substantial than the time we spent on earth, of health and wholeness and pleasure and peace. If we do not believe that, then as Paul plainly stated, there's little reason to believe at all. Without that hope, there is no hope.

The Bible never belittles human disappointment (remember the proportion in Job - one chapter of restoration follows forty-one chapters of anguish), but it does add one key word: temporary. What we feel now, we will not always feel. Our disappointment is itself a sign, an aching, a hunger of something better. And faith is, in the end, a kind of homesickness - for a home we have never visited but have never once stopped longing for."

When I read this, it dug deep into my spirit. Indeed, in the new home, HE will wipe every tear from my eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.

As I write this, I begin to feel more and more homesick.....