O Lord, help me to be contented

"Actually, I don't have a sense of needing anything personally. I've learned by now to be quite content whatever my circumstances. I'm just as happy with little as with much, with much as with little. I've found the recipe for being happy whether full or hungry, hands full or hands empty. Whatever I have, wherever I am, I can make it through anything in the One who makes me who I am. I don't mean that your help didn't mean a lot to me--it did. It was a beautiful thing that you came alongside me in my troubles.".............. Philippians 4:11-14 (The Message)

Tonight, I am reading this verse again. I salute to Paul who wrote this. Indeed, it is not easy to be contented. How can I be contented? Is it being contented, I lost my goal? Will I lost my ambition for being contented? What is my goal? How do I see successes? Am I measuring myself with my material riches, my status in the secular world? Where am I standing now - top or bottom? Too many questions, and they are all about the me of the world!

Oh God,
I have so much desires and wants. Lord, my spirit is troubled tonight. I am thinking of the flat I am staying now. Lord, it is my desire to have full ownership of this flat. This is the only way to chase away the creditors coming with their summons. Lord, I know I need to thank You for a roof over my head and my children. Lord, am I asking too much for this? It is a long and costly process to have this ownership. Lord, if this is You will, I ask for Your provision and smooth delivery for this to happen. O Lord, teach me to be contented for what I have now and who am I now. O Lord, empower me with Your power to see more of Your works than to see the things in the world. Remind me that all these things are temporal and only You, are eternal. Lord, I want to trust You that You will provide the best for me, even in my adversities...........Amen