Friday, November 25, 2005

I believe

I believe in the sun
even when it isn't shining
I believe in love
even when I am alone
I believe in God
even when He is silent

I believe and I want to believe....

Thursday, November 24, 2005

Jesus is my Boss

Feeling very depressed over the meeting last evening. Indeed, in this secular world, it is not what you are good at or what you can do, but who are you working with. The power struggle is so prevalent, epecially in my working place.

As I asked God for guidance in some matters, I bumped into this verse on the daily manna website :-

"Blessed is the man who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked or stand in the way of sinners or sit in the seat of mockers. But his delight is in the law of the LORD, and on his law he meditates day and night. He is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither. Whatever he does prospers".......... Psalm 1:1-3 NIV

Indeed, these verses again promises and the way of life God want me to live. Blessings come with obedience, that it is. Doing what is right in God's eyes and pleasing Him, blessings will never fall short from the most high God.

Dear God,
You are my boss. Ultimately, I am reporting to you and no body else. You know the situation right down here, where office politics, power struggle is so prevalent. Lord, empower me with Your wisdom in dealing all matters here. Help me to use the correct text when writing. Teach me these days in relying more on You than anything else.. I ask for Your mercy, grace, strength and Your provisions... In Jesus's name, I pray...... Amen

Monday, November 14, 2005

A warrior in Maple Story

Recently, I am hooked onto a online game - Maple Story. You need to create your desired character and fight through to obtain the levels.

I am a warrior in this game. I think I am one of the oldest gamer. They may be many more. It just that on one will know who are you, age or even sex, etc etc. All the personal information is based on the character you created.

I would say most of the gamers are children. It was the language they use is funny. I need to take some time to understand what they are talking about. Being new player in this game, I was not sure about the keys I need to hit. They are some dishonest players in the game who took my stuff when I dropped them accidentally. No one owed up when I ask them to return.

My son is my guide in this game. He helps me along the way like what level to use what weapons. He comments was "Mum, this is a real world. Be realistic, people will take advantage on you if you are careless, or try to be nice."

His remarks scared me. At the age of twelve, he realized how the 'real' world is through a game. The 'KS - kia soo' mentality has deeply implanted into these young minds. I hope through this game, our mother and son's relationship is closer and also to impart the correct principal and values in life to him. The way of life that God want us to be - a upright, honest, kind and generous person.

Sunday, November 13, 2005

Persevere against all odds

The speedy recovery of mum's condition is a mircale to me. Doctors given six months for her to recover. But she took less than 3 months. Our prayers answered. However, she believed in her gods and godessess worked.

I always find difficulties to evangelise to those who know me. One of the remarks would be: If your Jesus is so good, why He did not fix your marriage? why He allow your children to be fatherless? I have no answers for them. But I do know God has not finished His work with me and He is still working, in me and my children.

When I recalled all these remarks, a word came to me. Perseverance. Perservance against all odds. Perseverance in my faith in Jesus, continue to believe, trust that He will deliver me and my children in all matters and circumstances.

In James 1:12 'Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him."

I believe He promises is overflowing for those who persevere in believing and trusting Him in all difficult situations.

Dear Lord,
Thank you for Your word this afternoon. Thank you for my mum's conditions. Indeed, she is very much better now. I dont know how to love her or communicate with her better. I really dont know. But I do want her to be well. I am discouraged some times. Lord, You are aware my desire of my hearts. I commit and surrender all of them to You. You take care of them Lord...... Amen