Its Christmas time again....

汤圆, 吃了有缘有份 ^.^

汤圆 is made of glutinous flour with a little stuffed ingredients in the centre.. like red bean paste and sesame paste.. i love the sesame, it gives out a strong taste and aroma...

there was this saying... 汤圆, 汤圆, 吃了有缘有份.. meaning, after eating this, you will be have a good relationship with others...

i have made a pot of this 汤圆 for my friends coming over for Christmas' eve dinner tonight ...... ^.^

Retribution ....抱应

Is there retribution in our christian faith? Thats 抱应 !!

I guess not right, because our God is a God of LOVE and full of mercy.

Even if a person kills, steals, done so much wrongs and ruined the lives of others... there is no retribution for him if he believes in God, am i right?

Temptation and discipline

With two lonely hearts in a foreign land, the temptation of lust is so prevalent...

But i thank God for i am sober enough and ran away from it. Knowing i cannot make the mistake i have made twenty-eight years ago that led marriage to be a obligation instead of love... And sure enough, after two decades, finally it screwed up.... and two innocent lives ended in the name of a 'broken home' in the society....

However, i still need to thank God for all that had happened.. For He disciplined me and provided the discernment for all things... especially when i am on the road, where the temptation of being folly is right in front of your door steps......

I pray that God watch and make me strong, trusting Him in all things, and the scar in my life will continue to tell me not to repeat the mistake i have done......

And here, the words in Hebrews 12:10-13 ....

"He disciplines us for our good, that we may share His holiness. All discipline for the moment seems not to be joyful, but sorrowful; yet to those who have been trained by it, afterwards it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness. Therefore strengthen the hands that are weak and the knees that are feeble, and make straight paths for your feet, so that the limb which is lame may not be put out of joint, but rather be healed"

Lord, thank you for You have strengthened me much with these words..... Amen

Life is a preparation for eternity.

The take over come with a new name, new department and a new boss.. These few months, i have seen a lot of politics going on in the working place. Everyone is trying to protect his job scope and rice bowl in that sense.... People come out from nowhere just want to know what the hell we are doing and want to get involve too..... All these things really making me mentally exhausted....

But today, i come to read about this written by Rick Warren:
When you fully comprehend that there is more to life than just here and now, and you realise that life is just preparation for eternity, you will begin to live differently. You will start living in light of eternity, and that will color how you handle every relationship, task and circumstance.

Suddenly, i just feel so light. Light in the sense that the author reminded me what am i here for. Yes, life is a preparation for eternity that God has already made HIs plans long long ago....

I just feel that everything will be alright, while the politicalling still going on and i am sure that will stay... i just know its going to be alright. God is watching how i will handle all tasks coming forth and He is there to help me....

Dear Lord,
I thank you this morning, You have given me your assurance that You are there no matter what is going on around me. I am weak, tired, mentally exhausted in this office. But i am sure i am still here for a purpose. A purpose doing Your will in all the things that in my hands. Lord, i ask for Your strength and wisdom this morning to help me in all the tasks that forth coming....And Lord, i thank you for the eternity that You have done for us............. Amen

Something about Faith

Faith is a deep dark hole. There is no bottom. You can only go deeper and found yourself nowhere.... or go back where u have started.. There is no resting point for the path of faith...

Timmy's 15th birthday

Yesterday was timmy's 15th birthdae... We celebrated his birthdae at home as this birthday was a special one.... It was the lunar date met up with the English calendar date..

Tim is now the tallest guy at home.. At a present height of 1.63m, is not good enough for him, he is targetting a 1.7m.. I was told that this was the ideal height for a man.. Hopefully by playing more basketballs will make him taller..

As he grows, he resembles so much of his father in many ways.. I thank God, though in a fatherless home, he grows up without any femininity.... This was once a concern for me, but surely now it was over.....

Special 'hong baos'

Look at these 'hong baos'!! They were from val and tim over the last three years....
i just could not take my eyes off from this photo...

Indeed, many good things are worth to keep despite in this fallen world....

Our doting grandma

This is the best photograph that i have taken during the first day of CNY. Val and Tim with with their paternal grandma ... i have a photo of them, ten years back, also taken in CNY.... when grandma was strong and energetic.

i thank God for her, for she dotes us so much even though i am no longer her daughter-in-law. Visiting her at this kind of occasion is always a struggle for me. But i know she wants to see my kids... i have told my children we will continue to attend this kind of gatherings, until one day..... we know it is not approporiate to do so....

When i think of this...my tears roll uncontrollably.....

Daunting weekend....

Saturday medical check up left me daunting over the weekend. The report review showed that i have a heart problem. In the midst of seeking second opinion this week, alot of questions surface and i start pondering.....

The first thing in my head was i dont want to die... i have my kids to raise, my dogs depend on me.... I have not found someone who love me and willing to be a partner for the rest of life.... i have not met my maple friends... my good buddies that play the game together.... i have not care enough for my mum..... there are many things i have not done and they are many more questons..... but all without answers.....