Forgiveness

This morning, i received a mail from a church friend.

The mail was about a young woman who has a bad past wanting to marry the pastor's son. And that created some tensions and arguments within the church members. Finally, the pastor's son spoke and here was his statement:-

"My fiance's past is not what is on trial here.
What you are questioning is the ability of the blood of Jesus to wash away sin.
Today you have put the blood of Jesus on trial.
So, does it wash away sin or not?"

Indeed, i agreed with the writer that, we bring up the past as a weapon against our brothers and sisters ----- forgetting our sins, big or small ones, were forgiven by the Blood of Jesus.

And knowing through HIM, we are forgiven, i think to learn to forgive ourselves is also important. i remembered there was a stage, i could not forgive myself for those things that i have done in my past. Life was without joy, even though i knew Jesus has forgiven me as i repented..

Learning to forgive myself and put the past before Jesus is a on going process for me. Each time, when i think about the bad past, i will say a prayer, that this was past, the Lord has forgiven you, and you need to forgive yourself and not to make this mistake again.. Knowing God loves you and doing right in His eyes, will bring joy and peace into your life.....

I cannot thank God enough for His forgiveness and kindness....

Give thanks

Have been in Jakarta this week for a project, but my heart was not there to work.

I was rather down about the payout for the last year. Having worked all year round, taking care of two desks work, all i got was my performance was not up to expectations.

I cried UNFAIR. But again, what is fair in this world??

A colleague came to join me yesterday. I think God has planned him to be with me. As dinner served on the table, he gave thanks. His long prayers of giving thanks reminded me this verse :-

1 Thessalonians 5:18
"Give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus"

Tears filled my eyes. Though there are many heavy stuff need to be fixed in the house, bills to pay, provision for my gal to junior colleague this year, I choose to believe God to take care of these accordingly. I need to do what is right in God perspective, pray unceasingly and give thanks in all things....